Scary Weight.

Okay, so for the past how many months now I've been craving to look thin.. and then a break up happens (ding ding ding!) I'm not saying that the break up is the main cause, but..well..I mean.. if anyone saw the way I ate during the 2 months of hell... lmao.. then I guess u'd understand where I'm coming from..

Let's just say, I was not happy with what I saw in the mirror today..when I mean by that is.. I was at work.. and today I was kind of wearing something skin tight..not mega tight, but...I was wearing a crochet dress...and so it is skin..tight. Anywayz, I was getting a customer a fitting when I saw my hips... =[

I saw my hip bone thru my dress... (if you catch me in that dress again..you may see it) I mean, u guys are probably like, ohhh I wish I can see my hip bone..NO YOU DONT. U want meat sukka.

And.. ... you can begin to see my ribs, if I'm not layering with my clothes... (course none of you would see that, but take my word for it)
That is really freaky...

You know how Nicole Richie or Linsday Lohan has those pics where they look like the life was sucked out of them... well this is mine.


I love my hair, my outfit, my smile...BUT! just examine the pic..now examine me...my body structure..is NOT like that..that is way to damn skinny..this pic was taken..i4got when...but it was during the first couple weeks of the break up..so to speak...

I promise you, I didn't starve myself...that's the last thing I'd ever do to myself.. I love food too much. And that would just degrade me and such...and ugh ew. I don't do stupid crap like that anymore. I just lost the power...and the appetite to eat during those two months.. and now I look like a stick!

So as of right now.. I kinda want some fat back...

ABEL!! (: Kidding! but no really...Got Fat? I currently weigh, from my last doctor visit last week... 99.6lbs...

I use to weight 110-115.. *record scratch*... uhh? LOL

I'm definitely going to start....stuffing food down ma faaaaace...

Take me to a bufffeeett, yo! HAhaha!