Take a Moment.

Let me take a moment to just blog about this and I'll be on my way to do homework.

Alright, last night was very stressful and I pretty much broke down into tears because everything became so overwhelming, as sad as it is.. I had no one to turn to =[ which is why I need Sher and Abel

[btw Abel, got ur phone call, I'll call u back ASAP, maybe when I'm done with this blog]

Okay.. here's the deal..

There's this girl named Jasmine.. from the looks of it, she seems a like a pretty chill girl... she probably is...

Let me give you background information about her..

I met her about.. I would really wanna say.. a year ago. Before I met her.. I was like.. "zomgg I can't wait to meet u blhe blhe bleblehelhle on myspace.." I met her at a dinner at Hooters (terrible food) when I met her my views of her changed DRAMATICALLY. She's a very pretty girl...she can do her hair, she can do make up, and she can dress up really nice. I KNOW I KNOW this is going to sound like.. "krislam, that is sooo high school.." but this is the way I am..sine..freakin preschool. But here I am mega plain jane status, at the time when I was in high school I dgafd about what I wore to school ALLLLLLL THE TIME, at least now.. I can somewhat.. dress myself. But my hair would still be boring.

Anywho... that night I met her.. she seemed sweet, but what made me get all defensive was the fact that.. I was afraid I'd lose Tony to her because of how pretty she was. I mean this girl is really cute.. (no homo) I just never really said anything because it would make me sound.. stupid.. sooo yea currently getting a lot of weight off my shoulders...

I pretty much held a grudge against this girl for a year now...and she didn't do ANYTHING to me..

Sound familiar?

For those who knew me the past 5 years.. (so Sher..I'm sure you'll know..) I hold grudges.. big time..and will hold them forever LMAO.

Ms. Chi Yang...

I held a big grudge against her for 4 years.. FOUR YEARS. That is a long ass time.. what did she do? NOTHING LMAO.

How I got my grudge on her is.. meaningless.. and I regret that I finally got to know her end of senior year.. =[

So.. I learned my lesson through Chi.. which is what brought me to this blog..

Jasmine requested to be my friend on Facebook..

*GASP* I know.. LMAO

My heart nearly dropped when I saw that request..

And to be quite honest I think only..Sher, Abel, Maggie & My mom would know why my heart would sink..

What did I do? I accepted it. However it is difficult for me to approach her with a friendly manner as far as saying.. "hellllo (:"

Why? Because I am so sure... lmao..that Tony spoke a lot of shit about me to her.. or..something along those lines. And how embarassing would it be for me to say hi to her..especially if she knows that Tony wasn't allowed to speak to her during the relationship..

Yes, Tony did tell her to "fuck off.." or so he claims..

Personally, if anyone ever told me to fuck off for no reason.. I wouldn't talk to them ever again..yet here they were talking during the breakup..I'm sure there was some shit talking from Tony to her..maybe not from her to him..but definitely from him to her..

ANYWAYS....so .. to just end this blog..

I'm not going to hold anymore grudges against her.. I will make a move soon to justify some peace between us..

It's just difficult.. because can you imagine a person that didn't like you over a year for no reason just approach u?

hmmm..



in other words..?

I'm done
and over it.