i love how...

when women get caught doing something, men never let us live it down. but when they get caught doing something they blame the women for their actions.

i personally, do not understand anymore... how the mind of a man works.. it seems to revolve around like.. 5 main things.

1. food

2. video games

3. sex

4. their pride

5. their car

and i don't mean that, like in the terms of tony, but men in general, i see it in my dad too. (just replace video games with like TV for anyone older than... 40)

i'm sitting here, wondering what i should do next.

a day goes by, i do errands tire myself out...then drive 38 miles to see the love of my life...everything is GREAT, its running smoothly... both in loveeeeeee

then all of a sudden..

one decides to stretch the truth.. of something sooo tiny..

then all of a sudden... it becomes..MY fault..?

because YOU don't trust ME?

after countless of.. stretches it's hard to decide what's true from false.. what's right from wrong and it's NOT because i don't trust you, its because you molded my trust for you that way.

but it's like i said last night, i'm dropping this...and for only one reason..

if a boyfriend so choses to bestow a certain disbelief and disrespect to their loved ones, so be it. i believe i learned my lesson and i have done more than prove to you that i CHANGED and that I'm not going back. its your decision whether you want to believe me and take it into consideration..

but it seems to me, i've already seen it.

and choosing to not have faith in me, will not get us anywhere.

this then, takes me to my decision as to "what should I do now..?"